Shards of Youth

by ECCOstation

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Blame 06:10
And you blame yourself And you blame yourself Wake me up from this dream I'm having Wake me up from this dream I'm having I don't know where I am And I do not know what I'm feeling anymore Wake me up from this dream I'm having Wake me up from this dream I'm having I don't know... And you wake up and you realize that nothing is right And you wake up and you hope that you're alright inside And you wake up and you think that everyone's gone wrong And you wake up and you find that they're all dead and there's nowhere to go And you blame yourself Don't blame yourself Don't blame yourself I won't let you go Wake me up from this dream I'm having Wake me up from this dream I'm having Just let me go... And I wake up and I find that nothing is alright And I wake up and I find that you're cold and dead inside And I wake up and I feel the world is gone and I will find it Wake up and the world is gone and I will have to find it You blame yourself Don't blame yourself Its not your fault for what has happened I don't know and I don't care I don't know and I'll never feel The way I did when the world was crushing Holding you can you just hold me? And don't let go... They crush and defeat their way through everything And I'll just hold you I'll just hold you Don't ever leave me Don't ever find a way The consequences Don't let the consequences get to you I will hold I will hold them Don't blame yourself I will find you...
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Who goes there, is it you? Did I want you to? And you held a gun at yourself How could I help? Nothing you say is ever real How do you feel? And who goes there? Who goes there, is it me? My subconscious bleeds And all I want is some help To know myself And I just wanted you here Cuz you're never near Who goes there...its not you And all those things you planned for All those miles you traveled They were all a waste Why did you even bother? And all the times we shared Our forever after the plans that we made... Who goes there, is it them? The monsters in your head I can never make them go away You tell me all the things they say That this love was never meant to be Your poison mind just rots And steeps low in their thoughts There's nothing left for us Who goes there, who goes there?
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Fallen Years 04:13
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Impact 02:23
If there was a lesson to learn It would be to make some sort of impact You're collecting all the tickets Just to win your old life back And if there was a way to win You'd have collected your prize And walked away Never to see the light of day again But you turned to the crowd Held your hands out And let the tickets flow Into the wind For others to spend Cuz you knew all the angels Were cutting their wrists Just to know what happiness Feels like again And I'll reach up my hands Grab what I can And come up with some sort of plan So I can make some sort of impact
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Rainforest 06:48
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Overneath 02:40
Winter, Fall, they come to pass And I held down time Cuz it wouldn't last and Follow you to the edge of the Dreamscape Crashing stars So they can't escape and You were looking over to them for Some other reason that I couldn't offer Spring and Summer came too late Now I'm staring at the floor with no ther way And overhead And underneath Everything you wanted to be Was your breath and it held me In the air that I never had I watch all the faces as they sadly passed and Take a long look down at yourself And get back to me When you're not so selfish Overhead Underneath Everything you wanted to be with me... In my forest by the ocean I held on tight and I'll never let go As their shadows fell before And I never would have expected any less than What I ever got from you, but there... As my forest by the ocean sinks beneath the waves Oceans as far as the eye can see will drown you...drown you down...
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Who goes there, who goes there? x2 Anything you ever wanted Was right in front of you and you Tossed it aside Tossed it away And I can't help anymore I gave in long ago, yes Rest it away Rest it away Don't blame me for your faults You've never forgiven me anyway Who goes there, who goes there? x3 And the peak's in sight and I don't wanna stay and I don't wanna go Don't ever, don't ever let them go until... the ice won't melt Watch their faces freeze Watch them fall into eternity without me And hope yourself is enough Cuz that's just all you'll ever have from this point I don't wanna go Who goes there, who goes there? x3 And you blame yourself again The blame rises up from the waves and I don't want you to think that its your fault And nothing I say is ever enough Just waste away into the trees where I can't see you I can't see you through the leaves and I never wanted to forget that day But you made me You made me And I wake up and I know that nothing is alright But that's ok Cuz one day you will know that nothing ever was And it was just an illusion Of what you wanted to see Just don't blame yourself Who goes there, who goes there? x3 (piano fill) Fallen years, the fallen years Who could've thought we would end like this? Fallen years all behind us And I never wanted to change a bit Fallen years, the fallen angels Lying on the street I pick one up and shake its head but There's nothing behind its eyes I wanted love, I wanted pain I wanted to feel real again But there is always something stopping me Telling me not to breathe I'm holding down my home in hopes that Tomorrow won't lose its woes cuz Pain and sorrow births creation And all I have is a shaking fear that Something deep inside is gonna tear out outside of me And I don't know why I don't know why I'm scared I just hold on tight And hope nothing will change me But that's not how life works these days And I have to grow up and accept that... I'm the only one who can save myself The only one who can save myself No one's gonna do it for me this time...
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about

This album is nowhere near perfect. Its splintered in a lot of places.

Its an album that kind of smashes together a lot of peices of my youth at varying intervals, trying to make some cohesive sense. I still don't think it completely does.

Nonetheless, I am happy with how it turned out. I hope anyone else who hears it can enjoy it as well.

Includes four bonus tracks: early demos of Blame, Overneath and Snowpeak, as well as an early song which unfortunately didn't have a place on the album: Inside Mindset.

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released August 2, 2014

Guitar, vocals and electronics/piano: Nolan Tarbox

Additional guitar on Snowpeak: Scott Marshall

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